Mrs. Maus asked me to play for one of her adult students today. I did. I love that she likes my playing so much, but I can't help but feel that I'm showing off when I just play for random people. It's supposed to help me combat my nervous shakes, I know. I guess it has, even though my fingers slip when I play for strangers. I still can't ever concentrate on the music like I should when I know someone is watching. It might help to just play for a listener, without them being able to see me, but you have to watch to get the whole effect.
Which reminds me, I need to file my nails a little. And I will be retaking my senior pictures. Either at school in October, or at the studio whenever it suits my mom to go there.
As I was heading home (a little late; lost track of the time), she mentioned to her son about my car, and he said he's wanted a Jetta for a long time. He wants the older, square kind, though. I prefer rounded cars, really. That's my only criteria. Something round and cute. Preferably silver. No SUVs. I would look out of place in an SUV.
I wanted to maim the rugrats again this afternoon. They are old enough to clean up after themselves. I shouldn't be able to walk around the house and know exactly where they've been, what they ate, and what they played with. It's ridiculous. A light bulb exploded in their bathroom this morning for as yet undetermined reasons. I had to go fish the glass out of the sink. Then I had to fight not to attack them. I shouldn't be so annoyed by them. Believe me, when they're not around, I almost like them. They were lounging in the computer room this afternoon, making a mess, and preventing me from getting online. I think the wall between the computer room and my room is thin; I can always hear through it very clearly. Bits of their conversation wafting through while I was trying to read did not help matters.
I wish I had bought
Pride and Prejudice. It would have been so easy to toss it in when I ordered those books from Amazon (which I haven't actually read yet). I've decided that, if circumstances take me back to Borders before I finish reading the copy I got from the library, I'll buy it and pick up where I left off. I really like this book. Granted, I probably wouldn't have read it if it wasn't an assignment, but either way I'm glad to be reading it. We got good books this year. It deserves to be a classic. The language requires some extra concentration to understand, but it's worth the wading.
