Happy New Year!!! Welcome to 2003!!!

I read Mykella's blog yesterday -- good stuff. And I found out Alanna's on Blog*Spot. Both of them remind me a lot of myself. Maybe it's just the writing. Ladies, we have skills. =)

If you didn't read Greg's blog already, go do it. Otherwise you won't know the whole story. That link will take you directly to yesterday's blog (which I don't think has any profanity, just so you know).

Okay. My turn. ::takes deep breath:: Greg is one of my best friends. I'm really not sure how that happened, because I've never had a guy friend before, period. But I know that Greg is my friend, and I that I cherish our friendship. I suspected long ago that he might have feelings for me beyond platonic-ness, but he denied it, and I understood. Then, he was one of the bigger factors in my relationship with Mark. When he had that dream, he knew we were having problems. It's entirely possible that his subconscious is not telling him to go after me, but... if he interprets it that way, who am I to say differently?

My life is fast becoming a movie. I've read all the stories about people who were afraid to pursue relationships with a friend, once they realized they wanted more than just friendship. They were afraid because, although friendship has to be part of the foundation of a good relationship, once you're "together", it's hard to go back to being "just friends". I don't want to lose Greg's friendship. I like being his friend. I'm not sure yet if I want to take the chance of being his girlfriend, but... we'll see.

Finished Dr. J's take-home test. It wasn't as hard as I thought it might be. There were only four problems that I didn't understand. Grr. School tomorrow. Why can't we just have the rest of the week off as well? But I'll get to see everyone again -- that's always a plus.

Finally finished omega-ing for Greg. Chapter 4 of "The Fall of a Dark Lord" is up here. Or, if you haven't read it yet (shame on you!), check under "Linkage" for the beginning. The formatting is a little off, but the story is all there.

I always make New Year's resolutions, and then I always forget what they are. Makes them very hard to keep. But after reading Megan's list, I felt like I should give it another go.

1.) I resolve to be more social. I've been working on this one lately. My mom acts like it bothers her that I want to go out on weekends sometimes, but she really doesn't mind.
2.) I resolve to be more spiritual. I usually resolve to read the Bible, but I haven't done it yet, and I used to actually have the time to do it. I think this one is more attainable. I also need to go back to church.
3.) I resolve to work harder when it comes to school. I work pretty hard already, but when I realize how much time I spend online, it makes me think that maybe I could be doing something more "constructive", as my mom puts it. Yes, I actually listen when she lectures me. Sometimes.
4.) I resolve not to take so much "me" time. I take enough as is, writing in this blog. And sometimes I think I'm taking "me" time, when what I'm really doing is avoiding real life. Not good.
5.) I resolve to volunteer more. I'm almost finished with my community service hours for school, but after doing them, I realized that I enjoy helping people. That warm fuzzy feeling is very comforting.
6.) I resolve to try to give my family a bigger slice of my Life Pie. Courtney's almost 11 now. I remember what it was like to be that age, and I want to be there for her if she ever needs to talk. Being a big sister is not easy. And I usually hate family gatherings, but they're really not so bad. I played Uno Attack with my mom, my grandma, and the Rugrats on Tuesday, and it was actually fun.
7.) I resolve to take my time with relationships. Boys are confusing. After what happened with Mark, I'm a little wary of jumping into another relationship. (Alanna, I think I know how you feel.) The boy slice of my Life Pie has always been rather thin, and I'm not sure I want to take away from any of the other slices to add to it. We'll see...
8.) I resolve not to take things for granted. My life has been fairly sheltered so far. Living overseas all those years kept me distanced from many of the things that are now a part of my life. Like the Sniper. I've never been so close to something so terrible, and I hope to never go through that again. It's like I've been wearing rose-colored glasses (partly by choice), but now they're getting more and more clear.

I think that's it for now. Gotta go, must attempt to be rested for school in the morning. Ciao. =)

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